Dream

met best my friend today
we had a little chat before he getting off to china
he starts to tell me about his new job
his trip to hk and china for surveying the market
and what i got surprised is
his boss is a young man who are just 4 years older than me

yet owning a big company

a guy, age 25 years old this year

earned huge money
own really nice carssss

earn more than a lot of the people who are older than him even my parents

and i start to think how can he earn so much even he is only 25 now

he asked my friend what should you do if you own 100,000 now 

my friend answered 

buying cars? no

buying houses? no

and he said 'dream' 

he said god given us life not to buy all those things but to realize our dream

earn to waste and not earn after waste

after i heard this 

i realized age isn't the problem but the excuses for alot of us

and the real problem is our attitude

he doesn't born rich

but a man that built up his business by his 'own hand'
and now he can even live for his whole life without doing any job

but he chose to continue working

it isn't what he has to do but what he wants to do
isn't to earn but to help others
after listening this
my brain got jammed
full of question marks
after all i realized
earning is not only in term of money but knowledge as well
i always tell myself at least i don't waste too much
but the truth is im just making excuses for my self
i always thought that i am a lot better than others
at least i know what a lot same age people don't know
but actually there's a lot more people that know a lot more than me
yes, i don't waste a lot
but also i don't earn a lot

i spend all my time with all kinds of entertainment

wasting time with things that not gonna help me in the future
and i asked my self
this is what you call a better person that others?

definitely not
im just nothing different with any others

wasting money, wasting time, wasting energy, wasting resources

a life full with 'shit'

although still i don't have any dream
but at least i know i shouldn't waste my time anymore
im not old but im not young too
the thing is
if i say im not gonna waste my time anymore
i will call this a bullshit
cause it's not gonna happen
so since we know that we can't do it
then just earn more than we waste
learn, earn and dream

他的故事

坚持与放弃只是一线之差而已

可是一直想要放弃的我真的舍得就这样放弃吗？

真的想要放弃吗？

还是在等着我所谓的奇迹发生。

知道了真相，却还带着一丝希望。

想要放弃却又不想要放弃。

这种矛盾的心情到底几时才会消失？

这种暧昧的心情让人觉得快乐又伤心。

是好是坏我不知道，只知道这种心情让人觉得很快乐，却又能在下一秒变成伤心，讨厌。

快乐的时间走得好快，伤心的时间却又觉得像是地球放慢了脚步，慢慢的在旋转着。

最终坚持与放弃还是一线之差而已。